I fucking love my dad.
He’s just always okay with me buying men’s clothes and it’s fucking awesome. I showed him this shirt from urban outfitters just now and he was like yeah that’s a cool shirt. And hopefully we’re going next week to get it.
If I showed my mom she’d be like wtf that’s men’s. Really she’s the only person in my family like that. My sister doesn’t really give a shit she just likes to point out when I look like a guy. And my brother and I talk about men’s fashion all the time. But he also tries to get me to buy girly stuff sometimes. I think that’s just because he and my mom have talked about how I try to dress like him and it makes her upset. Whatever though everyone at school loves the way I dress. I figure at least I’m dressing well. She should just be happy I do that lol.
What is wrong with me.
I want to fuck this chick I hated like a few months ago. Why must I have a thing for hipster chicks. Apparently ones who are bitches too.
Or it’s probably just that I’m a manwhore. Yeah…
Omfg. There is actually no food in my house. My brother was gonna offer to pay for our breakfast but then my mom got all bitchy and decided no.
So we’re not eating I guess. Fuck this.
Almost told the girl I love/my best friend that I think I’m trans.
But then she canceled on me. So that was awesome. I really don’t feel like telling anyone now. And I don’t wanna think about it.
Funny if I was born a hot guy and had alcohol I’m sure she’d change her mine. Idk why the fuck I love her.
Lol ok.
I bet she swears I’m gay. No bitch! I’m more fucked up! I’m in the wrong body! And like I’m kind of on par with the “not trans enough” stuff where I don’t think I have to have a checklist of things that will make me a man. I think I want to be more obviously a guy but also still ambiguous. I want to be a manly person not a man. And I don’t think just a person. Manly person. Yeah.
I keep shaving my little tiny bit of chin hair so it will grow more.
And it has.
Wins. Not even on T. Still don’t know if I ever will be.
Yeah it’s getting bad again when I’m just waiting for her to log onto facebook and message me some new song she just found. When I start getting anxious to get a text message from her, asking me to walk her to class.
Fuckk. Falling in and out of love with your best friend. Fuck this so much. I’m waiting for this to get out of this again
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Things.
I was about 60-70% sure my friend was bisexual if not just a lesbian. Although I’d accredit 20% of that to me wanting her to like girls because I am currently one (in the body of one at least)
But then recently she keeps saying how she doesn’t like sex but she like being fingered. And I just thinking like… It’s basically the same thing. Except with one there is a penis in you. And that aversion to penis just make me suspect even more that she is gay. Because let me not forget to mention that she’s only actually into androgynous guys and also likes to send me pictures of naked women. It’s kind of like she’s 100% gay but would never admit it and hooks up with a lot of random ugly guys to hide it.
But at the same time I don’t want her to be gay because I want to be a guy. Or a least.. idk. I’m like 70% male 30% female. And I don’t want a dick. But I also don’t want boobs… And I don’t really want a vagina. I want to look like a ken Barbie doll. But with better hair. And clothes. Just no genitalia. So if she’s gay maybe it could still work… Basically she should just come out as being Cameron-sexual. And then we can date
But at least for now I’m okish with being a girl. Besides people categorizing me as a girl. I just think that’s fucking annoying. I’m just a person there’s no reason to specifically classify me. And periods suck also. But lately last like three days and then leave. Random long ass post of the week.
I never post on here anymore.
Ohmyfuckinggod.
I am NOT one of your girl friends. I AM A PERSON. I AM MORE MALE THAN FEMALE.
You piss me off so much. Wtf do I have to love you. Not to mention you telling me that you and this asshole almost dry humped.
Fuck you.
Ugh wtf
Of course my dad invites my bro again to a phillies game. Even though I REALLY fucking wanna go. And I told him last time they went.
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